I always struggled in school. I never got amazing grades, mostly because I was a bit cheeky and quite distracted. However, whenever I really enjoyed a subject, I always managed to do well in it. I achieved an A in math GCSE but the rest were very average.
I struggled in sixth form. I had just moved to a better school, which put me behind all the other students.In addition my grades were not good enough to study biology, which I loved. So I felt quite discouraged.
Then I decided to moved back to my old school, again I found it very difficult to catch up. As a result, I ended up failing the year, even math, which was the subject I thought I’d be good at. Due to this, I then worked harder and took extra tutoring classes to help me and I managed to achieve an A in Classic literature, C in Maths, C in Biology and D in Art. Unfortunately, when applying for universities, I had only applied to institutions that only accepted students with grade As and Bs.
One of the places I had applied required 3 Bs…BUT they accepted me. I could not believe that I had spent so much time worrying if I would even make it to university. Then came the journey of studying Biomedical science. Of course, like most degrees, it was challenging. But what was more challenging was my inability to manage distraction and procrastination. I always left my assignments to the last minute and I never set enough time to study for exams. I tried, but it was difficult. In the end I achieved a result of 2.2. However, most jobs or postgraduate programs want at least a 2.1, but I did not have that, and there was no way of going back and trying again.
I was definitely a little bit ashamed. Everyone I knew achieved at least a 1st or 2.1, and they all think I did too.
Now I was faced with a situation where my degree probably wasn’t worth much and I also wanted to study medicine, which was also super competitive.
But God is so good. I took a gap year and applied for the Physician Associate Masters course. It’s a new course in medicine that came from America and studied over an intense 2 years. And of course they wanted a 2.1. But I still applied, I got family to help me to write a great personal statement, which then got me an interview. A few weeks later I was accepted! I couldn’t believe it. Despite falling short on all my grades, God still opened doors.
I even got to study medicine! But the journey didn’t end there. Although the course was very difficult as I struggled, God sent so many people my way to help me study. I was personally tutored by doctors for free. Not only did I pass the course, but I got a distinction and now I am working in Neurology.
This whole journey has challenged me and tested where I put my faith.
The world has a way of working, it wants you to think that if you don’t do things a certain way you will fail or that you’re not good enough.
But God is greater than that. The world is his
«The earth is the Lord’s, and all its fullness,
The world and those who dwell therein.» Psalm 24:1, NKJV
and he has a plan for us all. Nothing will stop His plan.
«For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.» Jeremiah 29:11, NKJV; has never been so true to me.
Psalm 3:5-6 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight”.
Jessica, 26, London
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